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The proposal 

Alex beleved from a young age that God wanted him to be in full time christian service.  He wanted to be married. He beleved that the Lord wanted him to be maried. 

He had met who he beleved was perfect. April’s farther had been friends with his father when they were at bible college. Both sets of pattents had pushed for the relationship.  

After they grauduated,he purposed marriege and she accepted. Both families were beyound excited. He had brought a house from mony from his great grandfarthers inheritance. He was still open to whatever the lord had for them to do.he was busy at his local church.  It was an independent fundimental baptist church. 

The time had come. The wedding was sheduled a week later. He noticed something was off. April became more dispondent,more reserve. He asked her about it. She incisted that she was fine. He was not sure. He stil thought that something was up.

All atempts to talk to her failed. He tried to be playful with her but he got nothing back. He was convinced that something was up. He hoped that it could all be worked out. He was not sure. 

He was starting to have doubts about her. He wanted to be matied.he did not want to leave her. He did not want to break up the engagement. 

The Saturday before the weading was to take place, his phone went off.it was april. He answered it. “Hi april.”he said.”um we need to talk. Can i drop by. “She asked. “Yea of course.  ” he answered.  

She pulled in. He went outside to meet her. They had a rule against being alone together inside. He went outside.she excited her car. 

“Whats up? “He asked. “I cant go though with the wedding.  I just cant do it. ” she said.

He was shocked. “What’s going on?”he asked. “I like you. I felt presured by my parents.  This was my dad and your dad’s dream ,not myne. I cannot go though with this.  I am sory to put you though this.  I dont want to be maried to you.”she said.

“Your sure about this? “He asked. “Yes i am totaly sure. I am at peace with my decison. “She said.

“I wish you told me a week before the event. I wish you had talked to me about this. I respect you and your decison. I wish you well. ” he said. 

He shock her hand. She headed to the car.  He did not watch her leave.he went back inside. He closed the door. 

He spent time in prayer. It made no sense. He was sure he was suposed to be married. It was not going to happen. He had no idea why. He did not know what to do now. He was confused and directionless. Everything he had been doing was in preparation for something that was now not going to happen. 

He prayed and read scripture.  He tried to stay stil and calm. He was composed enough to inform his parents.  He dialed the number. “Hello!” his dad said. 

“Dad. Hi. ” he said. “You ok son? You dont sound so good. ” his farther remarked. “Dad. April has called off the wedding.  ” he said. “Well have you tried to change her mind. Perhaps this is just pre wedding jitters. It hapends. ” his dad commented. 

“I feel this is for the best. I am not sure that this union was part of the lord’s perfect will. I believe that this break up might be part of his plan. ” he said.

“You should at least try. Talk to her.things might change. ” his farther said. “I am at peace with this. I am ok with the wedding not happening. ” alex said.

“You can stil save this. You might be able to change her mind. ” he said “a double minded man or women in this case is unstable in all there ways. There ie more going on.i firmly believe that this is not suposed to happen.  I believe i could convince her to resume the wedding preparation.  I am not sure this is what should happen. I do not want to get ahead of the lord. It is unwise to try to open a door that HE had locked.  ” alex told his farther.

“Well. I trust you. I am sad he happened like this. “He said.”yea. I am too. “He admited. After a while he hung up.

Alex went for a walk. He tried to gather his thoughts. He camr home and flew a drone he helped build with his younger brother. He tried to keep busy. 

The next day he did not want to go to church. He knew he should.  He did end up going.hr taught sunday school. He kept to the lesson her had prepared.  He could tell word had gotten out. 

At the sumer service the pastor made an anouncement. “As you know next week we were going to have a wedding.  Surfice it to say the weading has been postponed indefinently. The familes have requested that we keep this private. It was not for reason of sin . please give these families privicy on this “the pastor said. 

Alex wanted to dart out immediately after the service. Once the pastor gave his may the lord bless ,he interpreted this as permission to leave. He got up.

He got the “we are praying for you”and the “if you need anything “.je thanked them. He wanted to just move on. He tried to be cordial even though he did not want to be. He felt like a periah. He felt isolated alone.  He was alone serounded by freinds and family. Although it was not due to sin,he feared people would stil think it was.  

In another church just a few streets away was a young lady. She was the pastor. She had been stabeda few years elier and stil had pain form it.she tried to ignore it. She got though the service.she was well liked by her congregation. She liked them.she felt like something was missing but did not quite know what.

That week, alex tried to focus on work.he worked at a grocery store. He was a front end shift leader. He decided to take the week off as planed. 

That week he tried to stay grounded.going to mid week service was hard. He wanted to be there and knew that he should attend. He felt awkward there. He felt out of place. 

He stil had the reservations for the motel out of sate. He decided to go anyways. He had the moby saved up. It would be good to get away. That friday morning. He was reading in thw bible thw story of Gods rejection of saul. Samuel told saul that he woukd find a man afywr Gods own heart to replace him. It hit him like a ton of bricks. 

“Oh my! This is the nutiest idea i have ever heard”he thought.  Yet he was really considering it. He decided that he would be maried this saterday. Now he just had to find a wife. 

To be continued.