I was stuned. I was almost numb. As the door shut, i tried to process it all. I had woken up groggy, disoriented. It was a blur. I soon realized i was in a hospital bed.
I had been in a coma for three months. I lost four years of memory.i have no idea why. I developed an infection. The doctors beleve i will recover. There will be some rehab. Right now they don’t know how much will be required.
Within those four years i changed. My life changed. Apparently a young women named kendra attended my church. She was going to a community colege. She had become a Christian. She and i became close. Eventualy our relationship went beyond a pastor and congregant.
We dated and are maried. She is expecting twins. I have no menory of her. I met her after my momories end. Why cant i remember?
She is very affectionate. I cant bring myself to embrace her. I dont remember anything. I am not ready to embrace her not yet. Right now she is a complete stranger. She knows everything about me. I find it quite strange.
A nurse comes in. “I am candace the night nurse on this floor. ” the nurse said. She was in her fifties. “Hello. ” i said.
“I am pleased you have awoken. ” she said. “I am too.” i said. “I understand you have no menory of your wife kendra. ” she said. “No i dont. It is a bizare feeling. She knows details. Its seems we were prety close. ” i said.
“She was hear every single day. She never left your side. She has had a rough few months. Woried about you and growing two babies. She is a sweet lady. ” the nurse observed
I am sure she was. I just need time to process all this. It was shocking. I wanted to give her a chance. I was so carefull who i let into my life. I must have carefully veted kendra.
“We want to get you off the i.v and on to solid foods. This will require baby steps. It wont be easy. It will take time. This entire process will take time. ” the nurse said.
I felt weak. After a time the nurse left the room. I was glad to have time to myself. I tried to reflect on everything.
I just stared in the sky for a while. The nurse asked if i was ready for bed. I said i was. She turned off the lights.
I woke up the next morning. They removed the iv. They would wait a bit before trying to get me started on solid foods.
Kendra had got in her car. She went home. She took off her shoes. She looked at some pictures of her. One was our engagement picture. My sister took the picture. I wore a white shirt and brown pants . She had a purple dress on. I had my arm around her.
She remembered. “Woa! Get closer to her tim!” melisa said. I got closer to her. “Get closer. You could park a sate between you too. ” melisa said. I got very close. “Put your arm around her. ” she said. Finaly he did so.”better! ” missy said. She snaped the picture.
Kendra smiled. Then she picked another picture. She looked it over. It was a wedding pic. We were smiling in the picture. The third was the pregnancy announcement picture.
She had to get away from the picture.she went to the bedroom. She changed into a nightgowan. She got into bed. She got under a blanket. Her phone rang. It was her morther in law.
“Hi mom. ” she said. Kendra called my mom mom. When Shw first got saved, the church kind of adopted her. My mom had her over for dinner frequently. They had me over as well.i got to hang out with her often.
“How are you doing? ” she asked. “I am ok.” kendra answered. She thought back the tears.”i know it was hard for you. “My mom said. “It was not him. It looked like him. Sounded like him. It was not him. This was a stranger. ” she said.
“I am so sorry kendra. Give him time. He is just in shock. ” my mom told her. She was crying. “I know that. He seemed different. He was cold. Stoic.what if i never get him back. What if he never remembers?” she asked.
“Even if he does not. You two fell in love once. You can fall in love again. ” my mom said. “What if we cant?” she asked. “Give him time. ” my mom said.
She and my mom talked for a while. She said her goodnights. She fell asleep. She woke up and realized that yesterday had really happened. I really woke up. I forgot everything. She knew that i had no memory of her or of our life together.
My parents came to see me.” i spoke to kendra last night. She was prety upset. ” my mom told me.” i figured. “I said. “Timothy. She has been though a lot. She has a tough life. She is a sweet heart. She is the weaker vessel. ” my mom said.
“She cares a great deal for you. She has for a while now. ” my dad said. “I know. I am just stuned. I never thought that i would be maried but would have no memory of that. ” i said.
“I can understand how your feeling tomouthy. It seems unimaginable. It seems sureel even fancifull. See things from her perspective. She has wanted you to wake up. You have and you don’t remember her. She needs you. She need you to reasure her. She needs you” my mom said.
“I take it you two aprove of her.” i said. “We were friends with her before you two started dating. We took to her almost right away. The whole church did. ” my dad said.
“I have no conection with her.” i said.”she has a conection with you.” my mom said. ” it is not all about you. Biblical love is self sacrificing. ” my dad said. I knew he was right. I wish i did remember. I want to remember. Every atempt failed. just could not remember.
After a while my parents left. I did some rehab. I got dizzy trying to walk. It went faily well. The therapist was pleased. He said i had a good first cession.
I was back in my room. After a while kendra came to see me. She wore a pink top and skirt and flip flops. “Hi babe. ” she said. “Hi kendra. Mom said you were prety upset! ” i said. I could tell she had been crying. “I need you timmy. Your not hear.where is the tim i know? Its like you have been replaced by a changeling or your miror universe double or an android. ” she said.
“Funy i thought you were an alien scientist or a refugee or something. ” i said. “I am your wife. I got the marriage license to prove it. I have wedding pictures. I have witness. This is not a deception. Cant you remember something of us? Next to God and. Christ sacrifice on the cross my salvation and the indwelling of the holy sprit, your the best thing that ever hapened to me. The last few years have been phenomenal. They meen nothing to you . to you they are neaningless. They never happened.they did happen. They do matter. You cant just walk away. ” she said.
“I know that.i am just in shock. I remember everything until a certain point and then its gone. I don’t know why. I hope i do get it back. Your in live with me?” i asked. “Yes i very much am in love with you. You always say it is emotions and a choice. One big choice folowed up by little ones. ” she said.”i do tend to say that often. My gtandfarther told me that.”she said. “I know. ” she said.
“How is it you know me so well? We have been marred what a year?” i asked. “Yes. We have spent a lot of together. I know you love ketchup. I know you drink your cofee black. I know more then facts. Your my very best friend. That is no hyperbole.” she said.
“I am in love with you? ” i asked. “Yes. You are. You told me not in words. I wish you could remember. I hope you regain your menory. Please dont shut me out. ” she told me.
I would consider what she said. I just did bot know. This wad so new. It was so unknown.
Tim tries to bounch back form the coma. He tries to remember and get to know kendra.